Archive for July, 2006

Thursday July 27, 2006


2006
07.27

I realised today that my face is as transparent as a clear spring or a glass pane. Everyone can tell that something is wrong or something is right by just reading my face. Some may ask me directly. Others notice but don’t ask me.

I don’t know which is better. I guess what one always wants is that the people who matter should notice. Sometimes they don’t. In fact in your moments of vulnerability, they act the least considerate. Is it because they do not care? Is it because they are sadistic? Or is it because they just do not notice?

 

 

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Monday July 24, 2006


2006
07.24

My new room has a red wall!

The red in question is a deep cherry red that adds a whole new dimension to my room and life too.

According to a friend it adds a touch of warmth. The stark whiteness of my old room was always a little unsettling. Soft lighting completes the picture; the red just seems to bloom and glow.

The red wall also makes a BIG difference to my general temperament. I am cheerier than ever before and look forward to spending more time doing constructive things in such a serene, comforting space.

A red wall is somewhat like a great hairstyle. Both can inspire one to jumpstart a processs. The latter makes one what to clear all the clutter and visusalise other elements that can dress up the room in congruence with that one red wall — such as lighting, furniture, scented candles and more. With that one element, suddenly less is more.

Similarly, a great hairstyle makes you want to discard your collection of tacky clothes/accessories and slip into something that is basic, classic, comfortable, yet trendy.

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Monday July 17, 2006


2006
07.17

I’m beginning to think that finding the perfect boyfriend is a whole lot easier that finding a ‘normal’ roommate!

Sulagna (my friend and one of the sweetest gals in the world), who was to move in can’t do so any more cause her company has some bizarre  accomodation rules wrt contracts etc.

Have just finished grieving about such a potential roommate loss. So, a new roommate hunt has been launched with a vengeance. I think I could write a book about roommates, since I have had so many (more that a 100, maybe). It would be a kin to Elizabeth Taylor’s magnum opus on marriage :)  

The inner wear launch was a damp squib. The magazine is quite tame and is priced at Rs 100, for what good reason, I am not sure. When I saw the cover (a very unflattering picture of Katrina Kaif) I experienced a sense of de ja vous; it reminded me of a Women’s Era. No gloss, no glam, not appealing at all. And there were no Victoria’s Secret type fashion shows either (sorry Chandra!). However, Meera and myself did experience some Page 3 moments when the flashbulbs went off.

Other than that, my doggie in Goa might just be missing me. She sits at the bottom of the staircase waiting for someone to come down…I’d like to think it is me! 

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Friday July 14, 2006


2006
07.14

might attend the launch of an underwear magazine tonight…maybe I shall discover my inner self :)

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Thursday July 13, 2006


2006
07.13

It’s funny how old habits die hard. I have a ‘friend’, in fact a one-upon-a-time best friend who NO longer features on my friends’ list. We were buddies in college and would confide in each other a lot. But  over time she changed.

She got bossier, dishonest and manipulative. We were about 21 years of age back then. By and by, we drifted apart. The final straw was when she lied to me and I got to know a certain truth from other people. If it was today, I would have confronted her there and then. But by then, our friendship had soured and this was as they say the last nail in the coffin.

The years went by. I went my way and she went hers. But our paths have crossed again because we have a common friend, a wonderful human being who has integrity. Yes, I know that noone really uses words like that any more to describe a singleton in her 20’s. But really, this word sums her up in a nutshell.

Anyways, because of our common friend, my ex-best friend and I have gotten in touch again. I decided to let bygones be bygones and started to believe all the nice things my friend had to say about her.

This welcome backfired. She’s still pushy, dishonest and manipulative, and worse still clingy. And she is clinging on to my friend for dear life, in the bargain driving my friend mad.

Anyways, my friend is now gasping for breath and hopes by some quirk of fate she can shake off Ms Clingy or at least get her to carve out her own niche in life. No chance I told her….don’t be scared of rocking the boat. Just be straight, assertive and spell out the way you feel to Ms Bossy/Clingy. If she gets defensive, annoyed and all of that, tough luck. On the other hand by suffering in silence and indulging Ms Bossy’s nonsense, you are nurturing a very unhealthy relationship.

This experience has taught me something too. It is important to be honest with others. But it is more important to be honest with oneself because problems don’t go away. They remain until we deal with solve them. Secondly, I respect self-made people who do not latch on to other’s. Ask for support, seek advice, get help etc but don’t be a parasite, a leech who survives on another’s resources.

Unfortunately it is only the people who trust and believe that there is goodness everywhere who fall prey to the charms of such people. For such people (and I am somewhat one of them), it pays to get street-smart.

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Wednesday July 12, 2006


2006
07.12

Just got back from a lovely vacation in Goa this morning by train.

About two hours into the (overnight)journey, one of the passengers got a call from a friend asking if he was okay. That’s when he got the news about the bomb blasts in Mumbai.

At the time, there were still four more to go in the next 45 minutes. Surprisingly, most passengers in my boogey stayed very calm, inspite of the news, even as the train sped towards a Mumbai, that seems to be overcome by one tragedy after another.

The cell phone lines were jammed and I couldn’t locate my roomate for many hours. The poor girl’s father was frantic with worry since he lives in Bangalore. Ultimately, she called her Bangalore office from a landline and they conveyed the message to her dad. At times like this a landline can be a saviour in this day and age of mobiles.

One elderly gentlemen got off the train in Cancauli, a place located about three hours from Goa. His son who resides in Goa phoned him asking him to get off the train immediately. The train halted and many passengers helped the old man down. I hope he managed to meet his son safely.

My cousin Sandeep called from Dubai to find out if I was allright, minutes into the news. After that whenever anyone called I answered the phone on the first ring almost shouting,” I’m alive, I’m alive”.

In the train, the crisis seemed to have bred a feeling of unity amongst us co-passengers who might not have exchanged more than a fleeting glance in more peaceful circumstances.

People exchanged news snippets and shares mobile phones when the networks were jammed etc. In my compartment there was a social activist, a lady who works for an NGO, which fights communal forces and spreads the message of secularism. She was born a Muslim but is now an aethiest.

Another Muslim couple were both engineers by profession. They seemed very happy and peaceful. In comparison the activist was a wee bit aggressive and at times a little supercilious. She made many references to incidents/people, some of whom we had not heard of. She was very ‘activist’ like. I wonder how she manages to convey messages of peace whilst her body lanuage conveys that she is formidable.

I noticed that though she is an aethiest, she seems keen on improving the lot of the Muslims in India, especially muslim women an constantly makes references to the fact that the community has been held back.

A discussion brewed furiously as all of us went from talking about the bomb blasts to terrorism, communalism and religion.

I stayed awake into the wee hours and grabbed a few minutes of shuteye every now and then. The train slowed down as we whizzed passed Panvel and was delayed by about one hour. The stations were not deserted. In fact at 6 am in the morning, people were moving around quite fearlessly. The cab deriver’s spirit seemed broken, even though he had not lost anyone in the blast.

 

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