Do I Need To Lose Weight*/%#@?!!!
Lady luck is flashing her pearly whites at my wasitline. Today, as I trudged laboriously to the gym for yet another session of huff and puff, the receptionist smiled cheerily and said that I was part of the chosen few who would get free diet counselling for a month.
Yippee…just the break I was waiting for all my life, besides a better job, a sensible relationship, more money ( not to buy materialistic possessions but to travel) and attain editorial nirvana( currently in the process of happening).
To be honest, I quit caring about being fat ages back. As a kid I got called fatty and fatso and ‘motty’ all the time and back then I would turn pink with embarrasment and shrivel up and die inside. But currently, I am too preoccupied with relishing every moment that life has to offer to worry about whether I look obese, never find anything in my size or repulse anyone’s sensibilities.
I truly believe no one is ugly. People make themselves ugly by acting mean, selfish, angry, vicsious. And then there are others who behave ‘ugly’ by constantly putting themselves down by thinking they are too dark, too fat, too tall, too thin because others contantly say so.
I have a cousin who kept deriding her own self-esteem by believing she was not ‘fair enough’. She had an arranged marriage to a ‘fair’ chap and before her wedding she kept saying she was not good enough because of her skin tone. I tried to convince her otherwise, and would fume silently within at all those old wives who were thrusting their prejudiced mentalities upon her.
In fact there are many educated people even today who would opt for ’fair’ over any other quality. That’s how shallow we are. Does fair matter? Not for me in the least. Okay, I am beggining to do a Miss. India.
But it’s truly what I beleive. If I go to the gym, it isn’t to prove that I can be slim too. It’s to be healthy, energetic and bursting with life. And that is exactly how I am currently. Bursting with life, ideas, energy and vitality. It’s truly a state of mind.
Hello motte bonkachi!!!! He he he he!!!